I may be going mad. I don't usually like to talk about this stuff, but here it's like just throwing it into the void. Rad.
Mania/depression/hurry up and wait. Argh! My head!
I am full of ideas but I am impatient and I get despondent so easily. I am drinking a glass of wine and trying to breathe deeply.
Today I am wearing a striped T-shirt with a peacock-print neckscarf. A woman came up to me earlier and said 'snap' as she walked past. It took me about ten minutes of confusion, and then starting to get cross, before I realised that she too was wearing stripes and a scarf.
Today while I was out running I saw two magpies together. I made a bet with myself that if I could run past so quietly that they did not move from the tree above, whilst making sure still to run at all times, then it would happen. I won.
Please send me a bit of magic and make me right. Don't let me be wrong. ('Oh god just give me one more song so I can prove to you that I'm so much better than them' - as one heroine may say.)
Nam myoho renge kyo. Infinity.